In silent moments,
Imagine you'd be here.
All of my memories keep you near,
In silent whispers, silent tears
Made me promise I'd try,
To find my way back in this life.
Hope there is a way,
To give me a sign you're okay.
Reminds me again it's worth it all,
So I can go home. ~ Within Temptation
There are some memories that are just so powerful within a breath of rekindling the thought you are thrust into that moment. So intense is that memory the sounds, scents, visuals, everything sensory is pulled to the front of the stage. You are vividly immersed in the location and the characters come to life, leaving you breathless in your solo glimpse into time travel.
Ever watch an old movie? One that resonated with you deeply the first time you watched it. Now go back and watch again, years later. Pay attention to your feelings. I'd wager they are still the same or the echo of the original ones can be felt and heard.
Sometimes memories feel as if they happened in another life. It isn't really an event that happened during this lifetime, it is a past life seeping through the confines of the hull they've been maintained in this lifetime. Example, if you're a parent and you think of an experience that took place when you were an adult (similar to now) but you didn't have kids, you may find yourself dazed and confused for a moment, disoriented because that You is so real and so is This you!
God says (in Conversations with God) that our SOUL's purpose (its sole purpose) is to remember. God says we have everything within us to access Who We Really Are. We have just forgotten. I wonder if thatis why when we remember something from our past we are often gripped so intensely by that moment. Is it part of the remembering?
Samantha Who? is on of my favorite shows on ABC. I chuckle when I watch because sometimes I feel just like her. I am this woman now (granted I have three children, married and know my past and present) but there is also this person who existed in the past...within this same lifetime (just want to make sure you're on the same page I can jump tracks sometimes). As Samantha flashes back to the "Bad" Sam, I think, sheesh, I've done some pretty interesting things in my past too.
Then I go back to Conversations with God. God says that there is no right and wrong, they are relative. Now when I'm reading the book I get the jist of the "conversation". When I step away, all of the things God speaks of sift through that filter in my brain causing me to question everything once again. God says in book 3, "Understand that "right" and "wrong" are figments of your imagination, and that "okay" and "not okay" are merely announcements of your latest preferences and imaginings."
This opens up a whole new arena. So when I heard this song by Within Temptation, the words struck a cord as though it were a conversation with God. Then the name of the band made me laugh. I do so love irony and a play on words.
I know where I am in this moment. I live for the moment as best I can. I definitely can't seem to stop the silent and often not so silent dreams. I don't know that I want to. How else will I realize them if I don't put those thoughts into words and then into action...hmm?
