MOONDANCE

I can't even remember how many times I've written on a full moon eve. Three years ago this month this is what I wrote:

March 15, 2006 - Wednesday 7:55 AM

WHAT A MARVELOUS NIGHT...  Current mood:F*ing Garbagepeople! Category: Dreams and the Supernatural ~ Van Morrison Well, it's a marvelous night for a moondance With the stars up above in your eyes A fantabulous night to make romance 'neath the cover of october skies And all the leaves on the trees are falling To the sound of the breezes that blow And I'm trying to please to the calling Of your heart-strings that play soft and low And all the night's magic seems to whisper and hush And all the soft moonlight seems to shine in your blush Can I just have one a' more moondance with you, my love Can I just make some more romance with a-you, my love Well, I wanna make love to you tonight I can't wait 'til the morning has come And I know that the time is just right And straight into my arms you will run And when you come my heart will be waiting To make sure that you're never alone There and then all my dreams will come true, dear There and then I will make you my own And every time I touch you, you just tremble inside And I know how much you want me that you can't hide  "Full "Worm" (American Indian -- from earthworms coming to soil surface during Spring thaw), or "Chaste" Moon. Other names: Full "Crow" Moon, Full "Crust" Moon, Full "Sugar" Moon, Full "Sap" Moon." I knew the full moon was coming. Temperments, strange eating habbits, weird sleeping patterns, sex talk in all the blogs increasing, all the signs were there. I just forgot. Not so much forgot but put onto the backburner of my mind. I've moved so far away from the days when I'd dance under the moonlight celebrating my spirituality. I don't know where my path turned from where it once was. All I know is that I don't honor my spirituality as I once did. I have determined that I need find the overgrown path and in keeping with Spring cleaning, clear it and find my way back to where I once was. Not moving backward. Yet finding the path I walked not so long ago. The other thing that told me a full moon approached...the dreams I've been having. The other night I dreamed of Chris buying me a fire engine red Barracuda convertible (my favorite car of all times like the one on Nash Bridges) with a white top...red leather interior. Wow did it have power! All it needed was just a tap on the gas pedal and careful for the whiplash and you were off! Another night I dreamed of being a chef in a popular restaurant. I had to cook carrots for one of the recipes but I couldn't find any. Last night I had more dreams than I can even remember. I just know that I dreamed. One that I do remember had to do with my waking up and seeing the moon streaming in through the blinds in the window near my bed. The moon filled a pond with moonlit water. It was pure moonlight. Not really water. It shimmered and when I slipped into the "water" it felt like warm silk. Caressing and comfortable. Then the garbage truck stopped in front of the house and woke me up. What do they mean? I don't really have a concern with that right now. There have been too many. What I need to do is ask the same question each night. What are you trying to tell me that I'm not hearing or listening to? Is there something I need to know that my conscious is not allowing awareness of? Before I go to bed I need to relax and remind myself to remember my dreams. Write them down when I wake up in the morning. Then I'll find out what message has been playing in my mind. So in keeping with it being the Sugar/Sap Moon, I'm going to have pancakes for breakfast...with syrup drizzled all over them to the point of floating them!

Things have definitely changed since way back then. I'm much happier all in all. Life while not perfect is filled with many blessings. My spirituality is what I do for work. I could be doing some other things...more meditating and writing more but both will be worked on. I continually work at having my silent dreams realized.